Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in narty_aka_cheez's LiveJournal:

Monday, May 22nd, 2006
5:34 pm	Bleh... Had a bit of a breakdown last night. Been taking my medicine regularly again, and I've realized how empty I've become. How I need to reach out to friends I've forgotten. Hence the big update in my friends lists. Everyone knows I'm not the same person I was years ago. I used sports to replace my problems to the point I forgot or lost them. But after last night, I'm more aware than I have been for awhile. Coincidence or not. So I apologize to Pashy, who I shouldn't have bothered with my problems and left when I started to complain, and to Sam for threatening myself. I'm excited about the future, somehow though. And I'm sure I can cope. I apologize to all my friends that I haven't had time for. Please accept my offerings and apology. ~Nart (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
7:51 pm	Why am I writing today? I didn't sleep well the night before, and slept the whole day today. That's why this is here at an unusual time. Don't really feel like doing anything, and just waiting for tomorrow to come. Maybe I'll work on some pet projects or whatever. Charlie Haas is back. That's cool. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
1:53 pm	Chinks in my Emotional Armor Yea, the USA men's hockey team lost, chauk up another huge disappointemnt for the "best team ever." Whoopee. Now I need to write something of substance. I don't have many friends. Ever since it was cool to be an asshole and a judgmental prick, I've been afraid to make new friends or I've just plain not been able to. I seem to be in fear of people. So when one of my very few best friends is upset, I get a little sick inside. It doesn't last long because I always remind myself that the pain means I care. Like I'm afraid I'll lose them or something. And when they tell me that they have problems, they don't really want to talk about it to me because it makes them feel uncomfortable. I feel like a lesser friend when I can't talk about anything meaningful. Like I'm less than human or something. I'm "that wrestling guy," or "sports guy" or whatever it is. I'm fully capable of listening, though I still feel sick, and I admit some uncomfort. And when I try to ask what's wrong, they act like I'm getting too close. That they're freaked out because I put them high on a pedestal like they're all I'm on Earth for. They may be right for all I know. I wish that wasn't the case and hurt people. I don't mean it. So I do the good thing and give them time, which usually helps THEM. But then I capture their burden by feeling inferior or unwanted, though in reality it may not be the case. It sounds corny, but I really wish there was a manual dealing with friends and people. Now I've tried adding people to read my LiveJournal. At first I felt sad because it wasn't emotional or whatever like theirs. And then I was ridiculed by said assholes for having one or asking about it. I feel like I've made a mistake. To anyone that reads this: DON'T WORRY. I'll feel better eventually. "The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care, right? (Yea)" Current Mood: Kind of Helpless Current Music: "Self-Esteem" Offspring (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
6:34 am	Big Monday: Mystic Force, Making stops on Jetermania tour, Manlove between ESPN and Bob Knight "I heard there's an unlockable first-person mode in Bode Miller's skating game that is all fuzzy from being drunk." Can't believe I didn't talk about the Daytona. Trhilling race from start-to-finish, having the most different amount of drivers leading the race in 500 history. Tony Stewart was a hypocritical goon. Acting like a Flyer, sharing their colors and all. So I've been getting into cartoons lately, watching some Monkey Team and whatever's on waiting for the Rangers. Caught a rerun of what I learned to be Teen Titans series finale. Yea, it tried to make a point with "moving on," but so anticlimactic. I knew they blew their wad creatively in storywriting with that "End" 3-parter with Raven. Seriously, that was so good I HAD to stop watching cartoons for awhile. I'll need to DVR the series before its reruns get pulled. Also want to put Avatar on my to-start-watching list. And their new nemesis was a brain with a Sit'n'Spell voice? Mystic Force first-impressions: * That intro theme is gonna take some time getting used to. Even then I'm starting to come around to it. * Cool to see Barnie Duncan in a role again. Can't wait to see Kelson Henderson's new character soon too. * Udena (Udanis Haslem, NBA Forward?): Snow Ranger was cool while it lasted, and she seemed like a great mother figure; very caring to the kids yet stern in convincing Nick to lead them. * The deal with Nick totally had the blueprints from how Jack came into SPD last year, but there were enough differences where he could become a quite different and enjoyable character. * Xander can be funny and serious, especially with his smoot-talking attitude (trying to reason with the enemy?), a good Green Ranger. * Chip is annoying, but can be salvageable comedy relief. When was the last time there was a male Yellow Ranger and female Blue? * Madison is hot (Blue), and does well in her concerned, little siter role to Pink (Veda). * Veda seems to be the anti-Pink ranger, which can be very interesting. * The villains like the Machine guy and Knight Wolf seem to be very badass. * Doesn't quite have a Power Rangers feel, and wasn't the most impressive of premieres, but the ground work is there for something good. Only wanted to watch RAW to see Shelton Benjamin win his Intercontinental title back. Donovan McNabb should try hitting his silent detractors in the locker room with an oxygen tank too. Pleasantly surprised with my OVW boys looking strong in their match against Shawn Michaels, even if they lost by DQ. I knew Jeter's spinning wheel kick would open some eyes. Look at me America, I'm driving the Johnny Jeter bandwagon. Hop on! Good batch of college basketball, even if there wasn't much. After hearing about the racist WVU fan, it seems kinda sweet how Syracuse beat them how they did. Both of these teams can be either really bad, or really good. It's just that West Virginia is usually good more often. And I'm not sure if ESPN didn't realize it or not, but Texas Tech actually LOST their game to Oklahoma by a close margin. They have their heads so far up Bob Knight's ass it's unbelievable. It's always been that way. Hell, I think that "tantrum" during Cold Pizza was a work, if I may use wrestling terms. If they had their way, they'd replace the word Sports with Mike Tyson or Terrell Owens. I also need to rebuild up my gaming collection with my tax money, and use the GameFAQs Top 100 as a guide. I need to rebuy Final Fantasy VII, get some games that aren't available for rent and stuff. Probably gonna play Ocarina of Time today again. (Way to go, ABC Family. Already they're airing the MMPR stuff out of order. *sighs*) Whatcha gonna do when Jetermania runs wild on you? (Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
3:48 am	Premiere Post: Pride and Presidents (and Pitching and Power Rangers) Believe me, I don't want to start this thing out by nitpicking (on Presidents' Day, no less), but it has to be said (again): If you want to find more proof that the jealous Rest-of-the-World hates the United States (greatest country I've ever lived in), one doesn't need to look any further than the XX Winter Olympic Games. Over-hyped athletes like Mike "Black Flower" Weir(d) and Bode Miller happily intake all the video game deals and endorsements they want, but they're also ready to provide an excuse for their inevitable failure. "Medals don't matter, I don't care about any of that." Our forefathers would frown at these not-so-stellar prima donnas who are representing you and me. I ashume that you are American of course. If Kurt Angle didn't win Olympic gold in 1996, do you think he would've shrugged off and said "oh well, it didn't matter anyway?" Of course not, he would've thrown some unsuspecting official into an Angle Slam into the Spanish announce table. And then break his ankle into several tiny pieces. Of course, the problem with Winter Olympics is that they have the greatest sport in the world in ice hockey, and a bunch of other events that were made up a few days ago. It's not really easy to broken up about getting a silver in half-pipe Snowboarding when the sports was just invented three hours before the competition. But as long as it ups our medal count to prove our dominance over the world (eat it, Kazakhstan), I'm all for it. Yes, the new American way is to have an excuse ready if things don't go our way. Take a look at Barry Bonds. Yesterday in an interview, he announced that his would be his final year of taking steroids and playing with (base)balls and his big stick. When he realized that this wasn't an off the record interview, he said that he actually felt like he could play for more years. So when he only bats .230 this year with 12 home runs, he can say "I was about to retire anyway." Today, I suggest to all that want to celebrate this great holiday to fire up your Super Nintendo Entertainment (or your ZSNES) and play Ken Griffey Jr. Presents Major League Baseball. Start an exhibition where you are the Kansas City Royals playing the San Francisco Giants. Because Nintendo didn't have Players' Association rights, the players were given fake names. Every member of the Kansas City Royals is named after a former President of the United States of America. Strike out Barry Bonds (or Sam Pickford) with Bill Clinton. Not only did he pull a fast one on the American public, but he's got a great fastball as well. And don't ask why Richard Nixon is black. Since everyone and their blind dogs know that Triple H is winning the tournament final tonight, I'll be watching the season debut of Power Rangers Mystic Force. Yes, this gem of my youth has made it's 15th year on television. Even better, ABC Family is starting their Power Rangers Generations loop (reruns of classic episodes) over, so the re-runs will begin from Day of the Dumpster, the very first episode of Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers in 1993. May the power protect you. Current Mood: Patriotic Current Music: Presidential by Youngbloodz (in my mind anyway) (Comment on this)